What does life mean to you?

What does life mean to you?

Sometimes, there’s some questions in my mind. Why this happen to me? Why me? Why my life is so pathetic? Why she is so lucky? Why i can’t be like her? Why God is so unfair? That’s questions is power enough to make me weak.

I’m fall again and again. I don’t think this world is belong to me. I hope i never born in first place. Cause all things going wrong and no one there to cheer me up. I always get jealous about other people’s life who looks easy and happy. That’s make me think of hating my self.

Once in my junior high school, i decide to kill my self. I think everything will come to end if i’m dead. I would never feel this empty again. I would never feel this pain again. And i would never hating my self again. Everything will be over. So, i drinking liquid of insecticide. I get my head dizzy and i can’t feel my leg in few minutes. But, then my eldest brother who never care about others people take me to hospital and safe my life. My parents come after with their worried expression. And that’s the first time i feel i’m not alone.

Then i realize that i’m just being so selfish about everything. I never thought that i still have my family behind me. I just look my life in one side, the worst side, and never see the best side. I become so pathetic just because some trouble and never be grateful about what i had. I’m just thinking negative.

What does life mean to you? For me, it’s not just about breath and eat. Not just about earn and wasting money. Not just about loving and hating people. Or about became success and famous. Life is more about accept my self, be grateful about everything, and be happy in simple way. As long as i live, troubles will be the part of my life. There’s no way to get over it. Just focus solve the problem and appreciate my self for come this far. Learn more and never think that i’m alone. One smile is strong enough to start my exhausted day. Grateful. Fighting. Smile. Life.

So, what does life mean to you?



By the way, English is not my first language. I’m just trying to practice my English as long as i’m learning about it. How is it, guys? Do you can understand what i’m trying to say? If i do wrong, please tell me. I will happy if you do.

Thanks for reading. And see u next time~~